This is the End My Friend

Have you ever had to say goodbye to someone? Not knowing if you will ever see them again.

I had no idea that it would be as hard as it was. Nor did I imagine that it would ever come to this.

I think the best goodbyes are those un-said. When you just smile and say nothing...walk away like nothing is changing and wake up the next morning knowing that they are gone. To live in a few hours of denial before the storm hits.

The day I left him....it was like we both knew that was the end. Without, saying nothing we knew it was over. And after thanking each other...for what I don't know and slowly walking...asking if he was coming back. He said no.

            I don't know how I even slept that night. I suppose it was just my body shutting down, protecting my brain and heart from the pain. The saddest thing was even though we never said those exact words (goodbye) it was as if we yelled them at each other.

Never look back when you are walking away, don't watch them leave in their car. I will never forget it, watching him leave.

As I said, unspoken goodbyes are the best....a good friend of mine left my junior year of high school. He stood there as classes changed. And I walked out the door, didn't even look back at him and left. I don't know if he ever looked my way that day but it was for the best. There wasn't anything to say...as there never is when it you're saying goodbye. No one ever has the words...no one knows what to say.

A few years later this guy I knew, we had been friends for a few years and it was rocky at best...One day, after not seeing him for quite a few months we talked. That day I realized that our lives were no where near going the same direction and we had nothing in common. I said goodbye to him that day...he didn't expect it. I wished him farewell and hoped he had a good life. We haven't talked to each other in 3 years now. I have to say though...that was hard but nothing compared to you (mdg).

That was the only other time I have actually in words said goodbye to someone. As I said with my friend...most times (though it doesn't happen very often at all) I just walk away...and slowly let go of it.